My Experience Bonding and Loving My Baby Born Via Donor Eggs Jul 13, 2022 | by Victoria Nino, Guest Author

Addressing Your Fears

If you have fears about bonding with your baby born via donor eggs, you're not alone. It's completely normal for intended parents to have deep-rooted fears or anxious thoughts like, "Will I love my donor egg baby?" I think everyone who considers using donor eggs has this fear in the beginning, I sure did. I talk to women every week who share this concern - so many tears are shed at the thought of “what if?”  What if my baby doesn’t love me? What if my parents don’t love my baby? If I use a donor egg, will the baby look like me? Is the baby "mine?" These are all normal feelings, I had them too.

Changing Your Perspective and Core Belief System

My perspective and belief system are much different now than they were when I was first considering donor eggs. All because of my beautiful three-year-old daughter. She has taught me what a mother-child bond is built on - and I can tell you it is not DNA. 

If my parents had adopted me or used donor conception to conceive me, I would have learned at a young age that genetics isn’t the primary force of love within a family. I would bet that I wouldn’t have had the same fears I had when I first pursued donor eggs because my core belief system would have been different. 

My Experience Bonding With Donor Egg Baby

Our bond is like nothing I could have ever imagined. We have a saying we say to each other… “I am You and You are Me” because that’s honestly the easiest way to explain our attachment to each other. 

Without her, I am not me and without me, she is not her. We are different, yet the same. When using donor eggs will I love my baby? Absolutely! In this blog, Mother via donor eggs shares tips on bonding with your donor egg baby. Learn more!

Before getting pregnant, I knew I had to change my perspective if I was going to be able to move forward with donor eggs. I knew I had to look at this situation differently than what I had been taught. If I had to give credit to the biggest thing that helped me do that, I would say it was when my first doctor explained epigenetics to me. 

What Is Epigenetics?

She explained that Epigenetics (Epi “on top of” genetics) can change the way your genes are expressed. Had my daughter’s fetus grown in the donor’s womb, she wouldn’t be the same person. Just like if you plant the same grape tree in a different region of Napa Valley, you’d get very different wine. 

Without me, she would not be her.

This allowed me to find a new way to connect with my baby and find my way to my identity as a mother via donor eggs. 

Had my daughter’s fetus grown in the donor’s womb, she wouldn’t be the same person. Just like if you plant the same grape tree in a different region of Napa Valley, you’d get very different wine. 

When Will I Feel a Bond With My Baby?

Later in life, I realized that while the mother/baby bond does happen for some in the womb, for others it takes time. For some, it happens months after they are born. But the important thing to remember is that all babies and mothers do bond with each other, it just might take time. This is the case for genetically related mothers and fathers with their babies too. 

Will I Love My Donor Egg Baby?

A Letter to Those Who Wonder, "Will I Love My Donor Egg Baby?"

Dear DEIVF Mama-to-be, 

I know you are nervous. I know you are anxious. Excited yet worried. 

What you have been through to get to this point is hard, perhaps the hardest thing you have been through yet. 

I know how lonely you might feel like no one will ever understand your heart. You have sacrificed everything for a baby who won’t have your DNA, yet still worry if you will be enough for your baby. 

But listen to me, sweet mama. When that baby finally makes its way to your arms, it will be better than anything you could have dreamt up. You will wonder how you ever questioned mothering via another woman’s DNA. I promise you this...your baby will know exactly who you are and you will be more than enough. 

You will be EVERYTHING.

You ARE everything. 

This love is the most magical kind of love. A love with multiple layers. A love that comes with deep gratitude and soul searching. A love that isn’t assumed, it's fought hard for. A love born in your heart long ago and will continue to grow with your every breath. With every needle, legal document, and hard conversation, your love will grow. 

A love that will break you into a million pieces, and will make you whole again - a stronger, more compassionate, resilient version. 

The sun, the moon, and the stars all had to come together to conspire a special plan just for you, to help you find your way to this love. You were chosen for this little soul with great purpose. This baby chose YOU as their mama - what an honor that is. 

You will see mama, you will see. 

This is a love you can’t possibly expect or see coming, but you will see. 

It will rock you.

It will save you.

It will change you.

And then it will become you. 

You ARE the love mama, hold on to that. Your baby is you, and you are them. Your heart is where your baby was first born and will live forever more. 

Will a Donor Egg Baby Feel Like Mine?

"When that baby finally makes its way to your arms, it will be better than anything you could have dreamt up. You will wonder how you ever questioned mothering via another woman’s DNA. Your baby will know exactly who you are and you will be more than enough."

Tips for Bonding With Donor Egg Baby

Intended parents may wonder, when using donor eggs, will I love my baby? In this post, mother via donor eggs shares her experience overcoming this fear. Check it out!

1. Tell your story to your baby in utero

Start talking to your baby in the womb and practicing telling them your story. This gives you time to practice and figure out the words, but also helps your newborn learn to recognize the sound of your voice - mama’s voice. 

2. Pheromones bond you

It’s no secret that the smell of your baby can trigger maternal bonding, but the opposite is true as well. The bond between a mother and child is so much more than a loving feeling. Pheromones are exchanged in the womb, through breastfeeding, and through other types of physical contact which create a lifelong bond between mother and child. 

3. Remember that all mothers bond with their babies

Remember that it’s okay if you don’t bond with your baby right away, you will bond with them on your timeline, please also remember that mothers who share genetics with their babies also have a hard time bonding at first. 

4. Cut your baby some slack

Try not to put too much pressure on the fact that the baby is donor-conceived. Babies don’t know how they were conceived, babies are babies! If the baby is crying a lot, or having a hard time nursing, or not bonding with you right away, remember that it has nothing to do with them being donor-conceived.

5. Honesty builds trust and attachment

Continue to be truthful with your child about how they were conceived, and find casual ways to weave it into conversations, just like you would the fact that they have Irish heritage, have 10 toes on their feet, and were born in California. This creates a strong foundation of identity, normalcy, and trust in their parents.  Create a safe, nonjudgmental space for your child to ask questions or express raw emotions. Let them know that you will love them no matter what they say or ask.

6. Involve family in the early stages

Educate family members and friends on how to best support your child. It takes a village and the more love and empowerment your child has around them the stronger sense of belonging they have in the family. 

7. Know that it's no different than parents who share genetics

You will see that genetics or DNA is nowhere in these bullet points. Bonding with your baby can happen in many ways, but the important thing to remember is that it is no different than a mother and child who share genetics. 

You will bond with your baby, your baby will bond with you, it’s inevitable. 

 

Related Blogs from this Series on Donor Conception by Victoria Nino:

1. 7 Ways I Learned to Cope With Infertility Grief

2. Should I Use Donor Eggs? Will I Have Any Regrets?

3. 4 Tips on Choosing an Egg Donor by a Mother via Donor Eggs

4. Using Donor Eggs, Will My Baby Look Like Me? 

5. My Donor Egg Pregnancy Experience

 

About the Author

Our friend Victoria Nino from @expectinganything is here to share her last blog in her series of guest blogs on donor conception. As a well-known advocate in the industry and mother via donor eggs herself, Victoria brings a special perspective to the table and helps parents navigate their unique journey using donor eggs. In this post, Victoria shares a response for intended parents who may have fears about bonding with their baby or have wondered, “Will I love my donor egg baby?” We hope her experience and insights bring you joy and hope for what’s to come.

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